Friday, February 27, 2009

Marriage is a tough move :)

Each time I attend a marriage ceremony an hear the vows of commitment, surrender and eternal love, I am only confused further. I cannot help but laugh at my own naivety, at a point in my life, a while back where I thought I was ready for marriage :P I then look at the faces of the bride and groom and I wish to get into that sacred knot myself. But the fear of giving myself completely unto someone then strikes me inadvertently as a sense of losing myself.

They say that guys generally tend to have this sense of relinquishing control before marriage and there are a good number of movies too that present this state of mind of men like 'Pyaar Ke Side Effects' for example :)

I can then only honestly, go hats off to these people who commit for a lifetime and wish them happiness throughout their married lives and wish that I too get somebody I could relinquish control to - unreasoned.

Love, Marriage & Happiness :) Wow !

Wishing a happy married life to a dear friends - Kannan & Himani :)

Thursday, February 19, 2009

God has given me two eyes - One to look at you and One to look inside you.

Why did I feel that? I have always felt that people are inherently good. I truly and deeply believe, there is somewhere deep inside them a lost innocence and beauty, as if a new born baby - peaceful, naive and calm. A state where doubts, fears, worries & discontent dissolves into inexistence. Actions here are not influenced or intimidated into being, they are but following a natural course of life's happenings.

Abstract and confusing is it? Yes, because you may feel you have not felt this exact state or will never be able to feel it. But you may not be correct in presuming that fact.

  • Notice and observe the precise moments before you drift into deep sleep after a day of hard work. When all sounds around you, however disturbing they may be, would not be able to upset your tired drowsy eyes shutting down.
  • Notice that peaceful moment when you wake up early in the morning as the sun rises and a gleaming ray breaks through and pierces your eyelids as if a blessing in disguise. You feel fresh and blissful.
  • The moment you lie on your mother's lap to shed a tear or rest a while. When there is a peace, a sense of security inexplicable in any of our spoken languages.
  • Remember the peace you feel when you look at a new born baby; sleeping as if lost and unconcerned of everything around it. 

In that moment of peace you are who you really are; away from the deamons & conflicts that consume each of us. Very few moments in life do we truly feel and experience this peace. (Tell me of any more if you wish to share) 

And so I feel blessed & humbled today that I have two eyes. So, I can use one to see the discomfort and discontent of your immediate self that makes you suceptible to anger, fear, doubts & discontent. I can see the pain and feel it at times because I myself am nothing but like you, may be lesser. Then I use the other eye to see through, to your peaceful self full of goodness, love and undisturbed bliss. I see that you can live in peace with yourself to start with and then the world at large. 

We are all in this search to find this peace, but still it manages to evade & fail us when we need it most. But why must it be so? In the search for this peace, we at most times associate wrongly with material pleasures and immediate cravings of our bare instincts lust. In the search for this peace, we associate this search wrongly to our unending wants and desires, to find ourselves dis-satisfied and lost, as they cease to satisfy us for long. In the search for this peace, we follow paths we may not trust. And, now we are lost in our own undoing, in displeasure with the state of our existence.

If you are here then I can see you. If you are here then He can see you. If you are here then you need to see Him. My eyes can only see the two sides of you but not help you find your true self. My eyes can only tell you that you need find a way to go deep through the bushes and thorns that you grew around yourself and find the light of peace inside you. 

I wish now only that you find yours and I wish to be able to keep mine for as long as I can. 

In an honest search for peace ...

- Arun Raj

PS: I am open to a counter, questioning & thrashing (if so need be) of my ideas and thoughts. Do you still have a question of how my eyes are able to see inside you? I will be answering this in the following posts. With this post I implore you to explore inside yourself and listen to yourself.

Note: 

* There are ways to sustain and relish this peace whenever you need it or for eternity. You would not be able to accept it if I tell you this. But then this is the only solution - DETACHMENT, MEDITATION & FAITH.

** Most of my influence is from the Bhagvad Gita's conversation, J krishnamurti, Gandhian Philosophy, the presentation of Jesus in the Bible & pure interest of finding the evasive inner peace.

Friday, February 13, 2009

A Prayer for You


I wish for you today - The sun shines 
Brighter for you, unlike any other day - before today. 
With harps of hope strumming to odes 
Of certain times of love & happiness ahead.

I wish for you today - A friend long lost,
Shall come back; to your surprise and heartfelt elation. 
And bring back those memories of summer days,
When you shared a cool lemonade or two.

I wish for you today - Strangers that smile
Unreasoned & unfettered. Let the birds & passer-by's 
Sing for you unbound; expressing their joyful excitement 
With placid thoughts in faith of our silent lord - almighty.

I wish for you today - A cup of tea;
You could sip by a placid street; that flatters your senses
To an instant churn of dancing temptations. 
I wish you a sip –a stolen moment, with you and yourself.

I wish for you today – A satisfying day; as it ends
Full of wishes fulfilled. A day as it ends in the light 
Of a starlit sky Where dreams are only reality doused 
In vivid colors, onto the canvas of life and its inconspicuous gifts.

I wish you sleep today, in assurance of a better day 
Tomorrow; where right’s and wrong’s are beyond you and are just 
Decisions you make which doeth not control who you are.
I wish for you today – Let tomorrow be a better day than today.

- Arun Raj


Monday, February 2, 2009

A spot for you ! - (Digitally Rendered)


In an attempt to blend poetry through typo and art digitally and through canvas into a blend that let you truly enjoy the expression. This is my first attempt. Am considering working on more of these :) May be someday I will have a bunch of these selling out :P